regrets...

so sorry didnt update my blog coz had been very busy for the past wk...my beloved grandma passed away on 19 Aug 2004. I received a call from mum during econs lecture (12+pm)but i reject it coz gt lesson ma.....so i sms her to ask y call lor.....she didnt reply so i called her back after lecture. She said grandma passed away. I was so shocked n said "Huh!" very loudly in foddcourt 6. My eyes started to get watery. Then had my lunch n went back. I somehow juz couldnt accept e fact. But on e other hand, grandma can finally end her suffering coz she had been sick for the past few yrs. So i went home n meet eddie, peiqing, mum & sis to go to ECON nursing home to see Ah Jia (grandma). My other uncles & aunts were already waiting there..We all proceed to a cold room where they put my grandma. She was lying so still...pale....My cousins n i couldnt help it but to cry out... Den 2 men(dunno wat u call them) tied my grandma up wif yellow cloth n put her into e van & drove her to e casket for make up n removal of her blood & water. We followed behind...e stupid van drove so fast, didnt even stop at e humps. so can imagine tat my grandma inside bounce up & down.. It took abt an hr at e casket. Some of us went back to Ghim Moh to take ah jia's things down to e funeral wake to put inside e coffin... Cousin Meng Huat did a video of the whole funeral process from 1st day to e 5th day. realli ought to thank him. The 5 days 4 nights were sort of a bonding session for us cousins, n e next generation...On the 1st night, we heard some knocking sounds coming from behind e yellow cover. A few times, not continuous though...is like knocking on some sort of wood lor....My aunt gt frightened & rush out. hahaha...Did praying on sat & sun night...so tired coz stayed overnight. need to look after e place...so while doing so, my cousins & i played mahjong..haha...juz started to learn..rather fun though. Cortege left on 23rd Aug 2004 at 2.30pm. Chartered 2 SBS single deck buses. I wonder how those ppl carry e coffin coz most of e taller ones r standing on one side so is not balance so e flowers we put on top of the coffin fell over...realli angry wif tat lor....how can be so stupid. Aunts used flowers to make heart shape in front of e coffin...haiz....so proceed to Mandai crematorium. We were led into a room.. did some praying in front of e coffin...Some of us touch e coffin dunno for wat reason. We den were led to another room where we witnessed my grandma being pushed into e thing (dunno call wat) & saw fire inside. WE really cried & cried non-stop... e Mandai Crematorium is very grand...So, we went back to Ghim Moh to put everything in place at 9th floor & ate dinner....My aunts & uncles they all dunno y so gan jiong, so fast go home.. Also at tat pt of time, there seem to be some payment prob den gt some arguments going on...I was so tired tat day tat i went to slp at 9+pm. didnt sleep for 2 nights leh....can imagine tat? Finally, wanna thanx diana & hui ying for attending e funeral wake. was surpried n glad tat both of u went there.. thanx for ur thoughts..also wanna thanx all my relatives, frenz, all e ppl i noe for ur concern n help..Now tat is over, I actually start to believe tat ah jia is always by our side...haiz....now i'm sick, flu, sore throat, think gt a little fever..haiz....

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