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Wednesday, June 28, 2006
Operation needed
Dad prepared all the necessary documents such as insurance, when must pay, how much to pay, etc...He's preparing everything. Mum came into my room just now. Finally I got the chance to ask her alone.
Me: Where u all going tml?
Mum: Bring dad see doctor
Me: Den?
Mum: What u mean then?
Me: Stitch the valves rite?
Mum got a shocked when she realised I knew everything le. Told her that I listen to dad & Aunty Nelly's conversation. Mum didnt want to let me know till tml. Since I found out, she just told me everything. Dad's heart valve not opening & closing properly, so blood will flow in the opposite direction which can cause danger. Infact now dad's bottom of the heart is abit swollen. That's y now he cannt use too much force, cannot knocked him or make him fall. Tml mum & dad will go arrange for an operation date which will be next week coz doctor said operation must be done asap. Doctor also mentioned that it will be 99% successful with 1% risk. The heart will be stopped for 1 hour. Though percentage of being it successful is high, there is still danger. I'm so scared dad dun haf the will power. Mum told me to take care of myself, must give dad support. Dad also feeling scared. I'm sure everyone will be if they were to have an operation..And this is a major operation. Well, dad & mum had looked normal for the past few days. It sure is hard on them. Trying to act normal infront of me & sis. Now all I can do is to spend more time at home & give dad our fullest support. But now that I've learnt the truth, I cant help but to cry. But I cant let him see that. That will only let him worry more. Uncle just sent dad a sms today showing some support. It goes something like this, "dun worry too much. you are the fittest out of the 4 brothers. you can make it." I've never thought of dad needing an operation, at least not at the age of 49. Aunt(from Sydney) will also be here next week. Now I worry for my sis also. Dunno how she's going to take it. These few nights, she had been asking mum & dad wat happened. She asked izzit operation. Mum say let sis know oni few days before the operation. Coz if sis were to know this, she will definitely object to the operation, she wun be able to slp. If she cant slp, mum n dad also cant.
Dad...you gotta be strong! We will support you. Everyone will be there for you.
Me: Where u all going tml?
Mum: Bring dad see doctor
Me: Den?
Mum: What u mean then?
Me: Stitch the valves rite?
Mum got a shocked when she realised I knew everything le. Told her that I listen to dad & Aunty Nelly's conversation. Mum didnt want to let me know till tml. Since I found out, she just told me everything. Dad's heart valve not opening & closing properly, so blood will flow in the opposite direction which can cause danger. Infact now dad's bottom of the heart is abit swollen. That's y now he cannt use too much force, cannot knocked him or make him fall. Tml mum & dad will go arrange for an operation date which will be next week coz doctor said operation must be done asap. Doctor also mentioned that it will be 99% successful with 1% risk. The heart will be stopped for 1 hour. Though percentage of being it successful is high, there is still danger. I'm so scared dad dun haf the will power. Mum told me to take care of myself, must give dad support. Dad also feeling scared. I'm sure everyone will be if they were to have an operation..And this is a major operation. Well, dad & mum had looked normal for the past few days. It sure is hard on them. Trying to act normal infront of me & sis. Now all I can do is to spend more time at home & give dad our fullest support. But now that I've learnt the truth, I cant help but to cry. But I cant let him see that. That will only let him worry more. Uncle just sent dad a sms today showing some support. It goes something like this, "dun worry too much. you are the fittest out of the 4 brothers. you can make it." I've never thought of dad needing an operation, at least not at the age of 49. Aunt(from Sydney) will also be here next week. Now I worry for my sis also. Dunno how she's going to take it. These few nights, she had been asking mum & dad wat happened. She asked izzit operation. Mum say let sis know oni few days before the operation. Coz if sis were to know this, she will definitely object to the operation, she wun be able to slp. If she cant slp, mum n dad also cant.
Dad...you gotta be strong! We will support you. Everyone will be there for you.
Tuesday, June 27, 2006
Worried
Dad did a check up yesterday & I think things did not go well as they seem. Yesterday, mum asked me what I have during the weekends. I asked why, she didnt say anything. That's something weird coz usually she tells me everything. Today on my way home, mum called me & told me that 2 of my uncles (dad's bros) are coming over to visit dad. That's alittle weird la.. coz dad sick they also never come visit, this time round they came. Came back home, mum keep asking dad dun use too much force. Dad couldnt eat much. Mum said nothing. Dad said nothing. I asked what happened, y cannt move so much ,etc. But nobody wan to answer me. Juz now my ah ma, all dad's bro came. Now that's ermz..really weird. Mum den asked me & sis to go to my room & watched tv while the adults are at the dining area talking. Wanted to eavedrop but couldnt catch anything. When they about to leave our place, ah ma came in & asked me, "you noe about ur dad's thing?" I didnt noe how to ans. Coz all I knew was dad's hearbeat dun sound normal. Den the next thing ah ma told me was," bu yao dan xin (dun worry)" Ok...so now you all are making me worry. Nobody tells me or sis anything. Someone called & asked for dad. Being curious of wat's going on, I listened to the conversation between dad & the person on the other line (it was aunty nelly). Dad told her he's meeting the cardio professor on thursday....going to stitch the valves!!! STITCH THE VALVES!!! Tat means there's operation going on? This is getting so worrying..Immediately tears flow from my eyes. Even Aunty Nelly from Sydney call to ask Dad about his condition. Aunty Nelly told Dad not to worry, is common, dun overwork. Only then I noe dad on mc le. I think I saw ah ma eyes were red on her way out. Dunno am I being sensitive or wat but I think mum also acting weird weird de.. By not telling me, doesnt make mi less worry at all...
Sunday, June 25, 2006
Enjoyable Day wif our special guest-->Lithium
Firstly, thanx jiayi, sam, hy & diana who had been trying to help me don't feel so depress. Hope you all dun find me 'fan' or anything. Diana, though you have probs, can juz send me the letter de. I will still try my best to help you though I may not be able to help myself. It seems that it's easier to advice ppl than to actually helping yourself. I finally realise that there are some things that unless you gone through it or you wont know how it really feels. TIME....is such a big factor that exists in problems.
Learnt parallel parking ytd & boy was it tough coz there are lots of steps. Well, practice makes perfect so shall do more practice on that. Accompany sis to Science Centre. It's been a long long time since I last visited. I think I have finally remembered how Science centre look like coz I always get it mixed up with Discovery Centre.
When I met my sis ytd, her 1st words to me were, "Dad's heartbeat not normal". I panicked. Immediately ask her wat happened. Den she told me how did dad's heartbeat sounds like. Went back home & clarify dad. Dad had sore throat so went to see doctor. Doctor hear his heartbeat then asked dad to listen to his own heartbeat & the doc's. Conclusion, doc said dad's valse did not open & close properly coz e heartbeat sounds like there's air inside. So dad need to do a heart check up on monday. Haiz...Hope nothing serious. That day, mum suddenly show me her skin. Her skin had always been rather bad. As she was showing me one part of her leg, she asked, "why like that? you tink izzit skin cancer?" I was scolding her in my mind but den I asked her go see doctor juz to check everything. Haiz... Suddenly realised that my parents are actually aging le.
Well, enough of those sad sad stuffs. At least sth made me realli happy today coz I enjoyed myself today. Supposed to have Poly 50 training today at 8am but I overslept. (not purposely de..I slept at 3am). Anyway, so i set to meet Diana & 10.30am at Simei coz she want to go register her driving at BBDC. Both of us were late. Today's movie outing only mi, diana & fc so diana & I decided to jio frankie go. Flooded his hp wif 26 missed calls from both of us. Purposely went to SP to find him to psycho him. Haiz...failed lor in the end. Suan le..Went to SB Block, saw a guy in green but I didnt realise he was fucai till Diana shout for him. Look so different!!! Okie so he met the guys for lunch while mi & Diana continue our way to BBDC. While waiting for queue, saw Jie Yong (Lithium), alex's fren. We wanted to approach him but worry later he cant recognise us den we will be so malu infront of mani ppl. A minute later, he stood up, thought he going off le. Before we said "Hi" to him, he said "Hi" to us 1st. Surprised!!! He actually remembered us? Coz we actually sit down & chat with him once? And we didnt realli chat at all either. Funny thing was we didnt juz stop at the "Hi's". We talked as though we like long known fren sia. After which, he went to book for his lessons or sth. Since at that point of time, there were only 3 of us going for movies, I suggest to Diana jio Jieyong go for movies. Approached him & asked whether he free later, joined us for movies. He agreed instantly sia. Didnt even ask what movie, time & who going. Very on!!! Like this kind of person. He's very friendly. Can tell when chat with him. He so ke qi also sia..pay me the money 1st before he left to send his bike for inspection. Diana & I couldnt stop laughing & smiling over what had happened for the 1st part of our day. Fate...
When reached Plaza Singapura, while searching for fc & leo, somebody grabbed us from behind. I thought who sia. JOYCE!!! OMG!!! So long no see her. Slim down alot. Since we haven had our lunch, we proceed off to Sub-way while Fucai & Leo go buy tickets. Mei xiang dao even can meet someone we noe at Sub-way. ARINA!!! She's working there la. Finished our food, waited for jie yong to arrive & we were juz in time for our show, Silent Hill. Well, it was suppose to be a horror show but it turned out to be a comedy show for me & Diana. Coz of leo lor. Same as Thiam Hock de..Make horror show into comedy show. He kept laughing & told me things which are funny la. So how to watch a horror show? but it was still enjoyable. Show ended, accompany fc buy cardholders. Though there were 4 of us there, none of us can have dinner with fc. All of us have plans for dinner le. So he tried calling ppl. One of them was Alex. When fucai pass the phone to Jieyong, alex was like asking, "jieyong who?" He too shocked le.
Fucai actually agreed to take neoprints with us!!! Last time asked him he dun wan. Today diana asked, he reply, "anything". wow...haha..well, so went to chose a machine & we made the 2 botaks (fucai & jieyong) sit infront. Not bad la..Quite fun also. Since we were the only 2 gals there, we design & decide on everything for the neoprints. Glad jieyong enjoyed his time todae. Next time meet up again. Haha..Provided he tell us when he book out lor..or else we wun noe also. By the way, he saved our name as "diana alex" & "hui xian alex" in his hp. haha..make as though our surname is "alex".
Came back home, spent some time sitting beside the sand pool. Not bad actually to sit there & relax. I juz realised that exercising can actually destress? Haha..coz I wasnt realli in a good mood, so decided to go to gym. After which, realli did feel much better.
Anyway, wonder when will be the next time I blog coz been realli busy for the past few days ever since we had our meeting for Bid Upon A Star @ *Scape event. The event will be on the 22nd July behind Cineleisure. If you all miss me, you will find me there..=p...Anyway, I'm the stall i/c for spac2go side. Spac2go is actually working with the National Youth Council (NYC) ppl for this event. There are another 2 other stall i/c from VJC. Well, there are basically lots of things to settle. Like wat stalls to have, need any sponsorships, get them already, etc...Zheng Long & Gary had been pushing me for all these. Suddenly feel so stress up. like tons of things to do. Coz there are still projects going on for me. Plus, this event is a national event. So die die have to make it successful. We representing SPAC2GO & Singapore Polytechnic, so even now sending emails also muz be of standard sia. As for me, when i sent out the 1st minutes to them ytd, so worried it's not up to standard. But heng ah...it was alrite. *phew*...Ytd Kevin called me & it was the 1st time i see he really depressed & stress sia. So tried my best to cheer him up lor. Now my turn to start feeling stress le. Suddenly I feel like blocking zl n gary in msn. Dun wanna see them online. Coz once I online & if either of them online, they will start come bombarding me wif questions. That's y had been replying rather slowly to ppl this few days. Still haven settle the stall thingy, gotta call for help tml le.
Sometimes time kills everything...
Learnt parallel parking ytd & boy was it tough coz there are lots of steps. Well, practice makes perfect so shall do more practice on that. Accompany sis to Science Centre. It's been a long long time since I last visited. I think I have finally remembered how Science centre look like coz I always get it mixed up with Discovery Centre.
When I met my sis ytd, her 1st words to me were, "Dad's heartbeat not normal". I panicked. Immediately ask her wat happened. Den she told me how did dad's heartbeat sounds like. Went back home & clarify dad. Dad had sore throat so went to see doctor. Doctor hear his heartbeat then asked dad to listen to his own heartbeat & the doc's. Conclusion, doc said dad's valse did not open & close properly coz e heartbeat sounds like there's air inside. So dad need to do a heart check up on monday. Haiz...Hope nothing serious. That day, mum suddenly show me her skin. Her skin had always been rather bad. As she was showing me one part of her leg, she asked, "why like that? you tink izzit skin cancer?" I was scolding her in my mind but den I asked her go see doctor juz to check everything. Haiz... Suddenly realised that my parents are actually aging le.
Well, enough of those sad sad stuffs. At least sth made me realli happy today coz I enjoyed myself today. Supposed to have Poly 50 training today at 8am but I overslept. (not purposely de..I slept at 3am). Anyway, so i set to meet Diana & 10.30am at Simei coz she want to go register her driving at BBDC. Both of us were late. Today's movie outing only mi, diana & fc so diana & I decided to jio frankie go. Flooded his hp wif 26 missed calls from both of us. Purposely went to SP to find him to psycho him. Haiz...failed lor in the end. Suan le..Went to SB Block, saw a guy in green but I didnt realise he was fucai till Diana shout for him. Look so different!!! Okie so he met the guys for lunch while mi & Diana continue our way to BBDC. While waiting for queue, saw Jie Yong (Lithium), alex's fren. We wanted to approach him but worry later he cant recognise us den we will be so malu infront of mani ppl. A minute later, he stood up, thought he going off le. Before we said "Hi" to him, he said "Hi" to us 1st. Surprised!!! He actually remembered us? Coz we actually sit down & chat with him once? And we didnt realli chat at all either. Funny thing was we didnt juz stop at the "Hi's". We talked as though we like long known fren sia. After which, he went to book for his lessons or sth. Since at that point of time, there were only 3 of us going for movies, I suggest to Diana jio Jieyong go for movies. Approached him & asked whether he free later, joined us for movies. He agreed instantly sia. Didnt even ask what movie, time & who going. Very on!!! Like this kind of person. He's very friendly. Can tell when chat with him. He so ke qi also sia..pay me the money 1st before he left to send his bike for inspection. Diana & I couldnt stop laughing & smiling over what had happened for the 1st part of our day. Fate...
When reached Plaza Singapura, while searching for fc & leo, somebody grabbed us from behind. I thought who sia. JOYCE!!! OMG!!! So long no see her. Slim down alot. Since we haven had our lunch, we proceed off to Sub-way while Fucai & Leo go buy tickets. Mei xiang dao even can meet someone we noe at Sub-way. ARINA!!! She's working there la. Finished our food, waited for jie yong to arrive & we were juz in time for our show, Silent Hill. Well, it was suppose to be a horror show but it turned out to be a comedy show for me & Diana. Coz of leo lor. Same as Thiam Hock de..Make horror show into comedy show. He kept laughing & told me things which are funny la. So how to watch a horror show? but it was still enjoyable. Show ended, accompany fc buy cardholders. Though there were 4 of us there, none of us can have dinner with fc. All of us have plans for dinner le. So he tried calling ppl. One of them was Alex. When fucai pass the phone to Jieyong, alex was like asking, "jieyong who?" He too shocked le.
Fucai actually agreed to take neoprints with us!!! Last time asked him he dun wan. Today diana asked, he reply, "anything". wow...haha..well, so went to chose a machine & we made the 2 botaks (fucai & jieyong) sit infront. Not bad la..Quite fun also. Since we were the only 2 gals there, we design & decide on everything for the neoprints. Glad jieyong enjoyed his time todae. Next time meet up again. Haha..Provided he tell us when he book out lor..or else we wun noe also. By the way, he saved our name as "diana alex" & "hui xian alex" in his hp. haha..make as though our surname is "alex".
Came back home, spent some time sitting beside the sand pool. Not bad actually to sit there & relax. I juz realised that exercising can actually destress? Haha..coz I wasnt realli in a good mood, so decided to go to gym. After which, realli did feel much better.
Anyway, wonder when will be the next time I blog coz been realli busy for the past few days ever since we had our meeting for Bid Upon A Star @ *Scape event. The event will be on the 22nd July behind Cineleisure. If you all miss me, you will find me there..=p...Anyway, I'm the stall i/c for spac2go side. Spac2go is actually working with the National Youth Council (NYC) ppl for this event. There are another 2 other stall i/c from VJC. Well, there are basically lots of things to settle. Like wat stalls to have, need any sponsorships, get them already, etc...Zheng Long & Gary had been pushing me for all these. Suddenly feel so stress up. like tons of things to do. Coz there are still projects going on for me. Plus, this event is a national event. So die die have to make it successful. We representing SPAC2GO & Singapore Polytechnic, so even now sending emails also muz be of standard sia. As for me, when i sent out the 1st minutes to them ytd, so worried it's not up to standard. But heng ah...it was alrite. *phew*...Ytd Kevin called me & it was the 1st time i see he really depressed & stress sia. So tried my best to cheer him up lor. Now my turn to start feeling stress le. Suddenly I feel like blocking zl n gary in msn. Dun wanna see them online. Coz once I online & if either of them online, they will start come bombarding me wif questions. That's y had been replying rather slowly to ppl this few days. Still haven settle the stall thingy, gotta call for help tml le.
Sometimes time kills everything...
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
feeling trouble...
Seems to got closer to Jiayi recently (she thought so too). Well, maybe becoz of the times we spent together is more than the rest ba. I wasnt surprised that you told me that you gals find me difficult to reach. You all may share 100% but I only share 60%. I somehow guessed that you all will have this feeling coz I do keep some things to myself. As I told you, I dun even tell my other 2 good frenz everything. Will only tell someone if I couldnt keep it to myself any longer. I'm nt sure why that is so. You said is probably I have big personal space. Perhaps that's a reason. Sorry if I let you gals felt this way. That's juz the way I am. I may change, I may not. Who knows?
Been sheding tears recently. Feeling troubled for at least a month. Thought I will resolved it soon but then something held me back again. Why izzit everytime I want to resolve something, there are always certain obstacles that hinder in my way. I always get stuck & panick & feel lost. Even when I finally found a way to shift that obstacle, another came. When can I really get this obstacle off me & move on? This kind of journey...is seriously tired. At this point of time when I'm typing, I'm not quite sure what I'm typing le.
To person A, thanx for letting me know. I know you had some struggle before doing so. It may have hurt me but then, I dont blame you. I mean, you are not in the wrong, I dont see the point of blaming you. Sorry to cause you "shi mian". Got you worried becoz of me.
Troubled & Angry is what I'm feeling now...
Been sheding tears recently. Feeling troubled for at least a month. Thought I will resolved it soon but then something held me back again. Why izzit everytime I want to resolve something, there are always certain obstacles that hinder in my way. I always get stuck & panick & feel lost. Even when I finally found a way to shift that obstacle, another came. When can I really get this obstacle off me & move on? This kind of journey...is seriously tired. At this point of time when I'm typing, I'm not quite sure what I'm typing le.
To person A, thanx for letting me know. I know you had some struggle before doing so. It may have hurt me but then, I dont blame you. I mean, you are not in the wrong, I dont see the point of blaming you. Sorry to cause you "shi mian". Got you worried becoz of me.
Troubled & Angry is what I'm feeling now...
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
如果你不再出现 我的世界 还有什麼可贵
可惜不够时间 让我们试验 什麼叫永远
想念变成怀念 心动变成心碎
偏偏还会关切 你最後属於谁
我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节 (的季节)
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯 早已经全都熄灭Oh~ Ho-oh Wu~
如果你从没出现 我会不会 觉得快乐一些
可惜残忍时间 总要把诺言 一点点摧毁 Ho-oh~
想念变成怀念 心动变成心碎
偏偏还会关切 你最後属於谁
我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节 (的季节)
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯 早已经全都熄灭 (全都熄灭)
我的天空今天有点灰 (有一点灰)
我的心是个落叶的季节 Yeah-yi-Yeah
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯 早已经全都熄灭 (全都熄灭)
我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节 Ho-oh
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯 早已经全都熄灭~
可惜不够时间 让我们试验 什麼叫永远
想念变成怀念 心动变成心碎
偏偏还会关切 你最後属於谁
我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节 (的季节)
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯 早已经全都熄灭Oh~ Ho-oh Wu~
如果你从没出现 我会不会 觉得快乐一些
可惜残忍时间 总要把诺言 一点点摧毁 Ho-oh~
想念变成怀念 心动变成心碎
偏偏还会关切 你最後属於谁
我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节 (的季节)
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯 早已经全都熄灭 (全都熄灭)
我的天空今天有点灰 (有一点灰)
我的心是个落叶的季节 Yeah-yi-Yeah
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯 早已经全都熄灭 (全都熄灭)
我的天空今天有点灰
我的心是个落叶的季节 Ho-oh
我不知道如何度过今夜
所有的灯 早已经全都熄灭~
Sunday, June 18, 2006
SPAC2GO
Supposed to have training for Poly 50 at 8am ytd but Huiying & I were late by an hr. Sorry sorry..Anyway, only 6 of us were there (Zheng Long, Frankie, Gerald, Edison, Bernard, Leomund,Huiying & Me). Since Evan not there, zl was the trainer for the day. And my goodness, he's worse than evan sia. The training was tough. Did some sprinting, running round the track & stuffs. Resting time was only 30secs? The most only 1 or 2 mins. Gosh!!! Zheng Long rather ke lian de la, kenna being called devil, cruel, bian tai, shen jing bing, etc by us. But still, he helped us, encouraged us. He ran along with me & Hy. I tink we never had chance to slow down coz he will be either pushing us from behind or grabbing our hands & run. But thanx for all the encouragement. Haha..Anyway, Huiying called Frankie "Jiamin" for the whole morning. I was immediately kenna pointed by him. Hehe..He knew I was the one who told hy. =p..Well, he take revenge lor. While I was doing my training, he said, "Fucai infront leh!!!" *Diaoz* Training ended and finally we had our wonderful reward! Drinks! The only drink we had during training was one sip of tap water from the toilet. Not even water cooler. Argh..Rested & saw some ppl from SB Club. They were there to play soccer so the guys went to borrow one soccer ball from them and had their own game. Haha..Frankie played soccer also lehz!!! I tink the last time I see him play ball was during our expedition camp? haha..He keep saying there's no fate between him & ball. Zheng Long changed into his England soccer team shirt. For a moment Hy & I thought he was shuai. (coz of the shirt) haha..Went to IMM for lunch after shower. Dunno y, it seems that hy & I always ended up eating "ban mian" after training. A trend? haha..Went around walking for awhile & zl spotted some ppl playing cyber games la. It was like some magnetic force pulling him & bernard towards the area. There was some competition going on & one of the salesperson asked us whether do we wan to take part. All we haf to do is to strike a pose in pairs. People will vote & the pair with most votes win. Only Zheng Long & Bernard took part. Hy, Leo & I vote for them lor. Den all of us received free toy car. Going to write our names & placed them in clubroom. Hehe..Huiying & I went home 1st before the dinner at Marina South. On our way back, we came up with something.
Together: Hi da jia hao, wo men shi CO8.
Hy: Hi, wo shi CO8 de Zheng Long.
Hx: Hi, wo shi CO8 de Bernard.
Together: Wo men shi CO8.
Haha..we all did this with their actions. Laughed all the way to Jurong East MRT station.
Anyway, if u all wan to vote for Zheng Long & Bernard, you all can do so at www.hardwarezone.com/poweroftwo/
They are Group CO8..
Thanx...Support them!!! Haha...
Met up with Diana & Hy to Marina Bay MRT station to meet the rest for our gathering with the SPAC2GO year 1s. Frankie, Edison & Gerald didnt turn up in the end. Too tired le. FRANKIE!!! He didnt come lehz!!! Diana & my great show for him & Jm gone. Nvm..next time see him show him..haha..Only 3 year 1s turned up. Sad..Infact in total only 17 turned up? Let's see who were there. Ermz... Zheng Long, Diana, Hy, Jm, Leomund, Bernard, Me, Mike, Sw, Hanifa, Ka Mae, Jun Yang, Joanne, Val, Fiona, Fitri, Evan. Tat's abt it.. But Joanne, val, fiona, fitri n evan had their dinner at Poly Forum before they came, so they went to fly kite or something. The people at our table (3 musketeers, mike & sw) are the more alive ones. Or the more crazy bunch. Kept laughing, entertaining ourselves. Mike even gave us some chinese riddles to solve. Had our "yum seng" and while doing so, all the eyes were like fixed on us. Thanx Zheng Long for peeling off the prawn shell for us. Hehe.. We nt bad also de lor. Cooked for him to eat also. Speaking of cooking ah. Haiz..Diana, u pian xin again. Haiz..Never cook for ur mummy, gan die & nu er de..Muz wait till we sae u den u will cook for us. Some ppl no need open mouth, u will auto cook for him. Haiz... Suan le ba... Wo men dou kan kai le...Hahaha...The year 1s left rather early at about 9plus? Later on joanne, val, fiona, fitri, evan also left. Left only the seniors, mike, sw. In the end, Mike & I went to order one jug of Tiger Beer, shared among 6 people. Zheng Long & Hy faces went red again. As expected la..Later on, bernard, leomund & jiamin also went off. Haiz...sianz..was slacking halfway when we heard a "pop" sound from the pot. Then realise the pot had a hole in it..tink there was no soup inside then too hot or sth. Mike n sw shift away the pot den the aluminium foil caught fire. Omg!!! Apparently, all 5 of them stunned, staring at the fire. Since nobody did anything, I went to call one of the person in charge over there lor. One night diu lian 2 times sia..1st time is the "yum seng", 2nd time is the fire thingy. People started to sae, "wah..zao huo le"...It was our 1st time to have such an incident. After the fire had been put out, diana & I acted out the Frankie & Jiamin scene to all of them. Slacked for awhile more & went off at 10.10pm ba..Rather early...but den nth to do also le. Went home, wanted to watch the match between Czech Republic & Ghana at midnite but too tired. In the end, fell aslp while watching. *sad*
Together: Hi da jia hao, wo men shi CO8.
Hy: Hi, wo shi CO8 de Zheng Long.
Hx: Hi, wo shi CO8 de Bernard.
Together: Wo men shi CO8.
Haha..we all did this with their actions. Laughed all the way to Jurong East MRT station.
Anyway, if u all wan to vote for Zheng Long & Bernard, you all can do so at www.hardwarezone.com/poweroftwo/
They are Group CO8..
Thanx...Support them!!! Haha...
Met up with Diana & Hy to Marina Bay MRT station to meet the rest for our gathering with the SPAC2GO year 1s. Frankie, Edison & Gerald didnt turn up in the end. Too tired le. FRANKIE!!! He didnt come lehz!!! Diana & my great show for him & Jm gone. Nvm..next time see him show him..haha..Only 3 year 1s turned up. Sad..Infact in total only 17 turned up? Let's see who were there. Ermz... Zheng Long, Diana, Hy, Jm, Leomund, Bernard, Me, Mike, Sw, Hanifa, Ka Mae, Jun Yang, Joanne, Val, Fiona, Fitri, Evan. Tat's abt it.. But Joanne, val, fiona, fitri n evan had their dinner at Poly Forum before they came, so they went to fly kite or something. The people at our table (3 musketeers, mike & sw) are the more alive ones. Or the more crazy bunch. Kept laughing, entertaining ourselves. Mike even gave us some chinese riddles to solve. Had our "yum seng" and while doing so, all the eyes were like fixed on us. Thanx Zheng Long for peeling off the prawn shell for us. Hehe.. We nt bad also de lor. Cooked for him to eat also. Speaking of cooking ah. Haiz..Diana, u pian xin again. Haiz..Never cook for ur mummy, gan die & nu er de..Muz wait till we sae u den u will cook for us. Some ppl no need open mouth, u will auto cook for him. Haiz... Suan le ba... Wo men dou kan kai le...Hahaha...The year 1s left rather early at about 9plus? Later on joanne, val, fiona, fitri, evan also left. Left only the seniors, mike, sw. In the end, Mike & I went to order one jug of Tiger Beer, shared among 6 people. Zheng Long & Hy faces went red again. As expected la..Later on, bernard, leomund & jiamin also went off. Haiz...sianz..was slacking halfway when we heard a "pop" sound from the pot. Then realise the pot had a hole in it..tink there was no soup inside then too hot or sth. Mike n sw shift away the pot den the aluminium foil caught fire. Omg!!! Apparently, all 5 of them stunned, staring at the fire. Since nobody did anything, I went to call one of the person in charge over there lor. One night diu lian 2 times sia..1st time is the "yum seng", 2nd time is the fire thingy. People started to sae, "wah..zao huo le"...It was our 1st time to have such an incident. After the fire had been put out, diana & I acted out the Frankie & Jiamin scene to all of them. Slacked for awhile more & went off at 10.10pm ba..Rather early...but den nth to do also le. Went home, wanted to watch the match between Czech Republic & Ghana at midnite but too tired. In the end, fell aslp while watching. *sad*
Friday, June 16, 2006
So sorry guys...
Todae was the day to meet another batch of year 1s. Welcome them to SPAC2GO. Very fast lehz..It was like 8 mths ago when we juz welcome the year 1s (now currently yr 2 le). Anyway, zl told the members to meet at 12pm but since I go straight from piano, I asked diana to meet mi early or else i will be in sch alone at abt 11am. Well, we thought we'll be the earliest. Sekali zheng long was one or two trains ahead of us. Diaoz..Kevin was also early...So we slacked in clubroom la. Haha..Diana...u pian xin lehz...Mothers Day, the so called card u gave was only a piece of paper. And that was last year lor..This year u nv give mi. But for Fathers Day, u gave ur gan die (aka zheng long) a self made card. No Fair!!! Haha...Anyway, we started to have our ice-breaking games when the year 1s arrived. We like sabo one another one de la..Had the nyaa talk by Gary at 2.30pm. Talk lasted for about an hour. Zheng Long, Edison & I met Gary to discuss about the FUESTA. Wah..suddenly the 3 of us feel so stress. Never handle such big event before. Dunno how will it be like. Well, more meetings will be coming up. Haiz.. Anyway, I wan to sae sorry to Diana, Jiamin, Frankie, Mike and Siang Wee coz they waited for me for 2 hours. Sorry sorry.. My meeting wif Gary only ended at 6pm. I jio them out for dinner de den i late...Haiz..I feel so guilty. First time let ppl wait so long. Realli paiseh.. Anyway, thanx mike for intro us the fishball noodle at Jurong East. Realli nice. 5 of us were eating that while our dear frankie had another stuff. Since I made everyone waited for so long, feeling guilty, I decided to treat all of them Sugar Cane Drink. Actually had a nice chat with them la. Mike is another Zheng Long sia. Talk all those philosophical stuffs. Den his chinese hor..so cheem de..When he sae those "cheng yu", jiamin, diana, frankie & I were stunned. We were like, "wat u talking sia?" We started off with talking about happy funny stuffs like all the rumours we had during our expedition camp, to those sad stuffs like, we grad soon, time flies, ppl die, funeral. Suddenly the whole atmosphere like alittle tense. But den, ended with some temptations la. haha..Thanx to Frankie lor..Keep telling us the wonderful chocolate he had in London, the cookies he ate everyday in London. Argh...Den nv buy for us summore. Hmph...Btw, speaking of frankie, he changed le. Dare to speak up more, well at least to us maybe? Coz that was what Diana & I felt. Ever since the other time we had our dinner at Redhill. Started to tell us ermz..some things we never knew. Todae he very talkative also. But that's a good thing.
While on our way home, Diana & I ji siao Frankie & Jiamin again. Basically we "zhi dao zhi yan" la..So the story we planned goes something like that:
Frankie & Jiamin will get off at outram park, den walk hand in hand. Frankie will send jiamin home 1st before he go home.
Frankie will be like so shy & sae, "Jiamin, actually I wan to tell you something. ermz....er..."
Jiamin: "Ya?"
Frankie: "U listen carefully hor..I oni sae one time ah..Ni bu hui mei you wei lai, ying wei wei lai you wo."
Jiamin (so touched): "Frankie!!!"
Frankie: "Jiamin!!!"
Both of them will hug each other..
~The End~
Wahaha..When Diana & I were acting on train, we kept laughing non stop sia..Tml shall act for Frankie & Jiamin to see ..Hehe..
Tml going to have another dinner! Wif SPAC2GO again...but is a gathering..at Marina South..Our "fave" place? lolx..gathering will always somehow ended up steamboat at marina.
While on our way home, Diana & I ji siao Frankie & Jiamin again. Basically we "zhi dao zhi yan" la..So the story we planned goes something like that:
Frankie & Jiamin will get off at outram park, den walk hand in hand. Frankie will send jiamin home 1st before he go home.
Frankie will be like so shy & sae, "Jiamin, actually I wan to tell you something. ermz....er..."
Jiamin: "Ya?"
Frankie: "U listen carefully hor..I oni sae one time ah..Ni bu hui mei you wei lai, ying wei wei lai you wo."
Jiamin (so touched): "Frankie!!!"
Frankie: "Jiamin!!!"
Both of them will hug each other..
~The End~
Wahaha..When Diana & I were acting on train, we kept laughing non stop sia..Tml shall act for Frankie & Jiamin to see ..Hehe..
Tml going to have another dinner! Wif SPAC2GO again...but is a gathering..at Marina South..Our "fave" place? lolx..gathering will always somehow ended up steamboat at marina.
Had 2 continuous driving lessons today. 2 different instructors from my usual instructors. Instructor for 1st lesson spoke in chinese & I always need him to repeat in english coz he tend to explain in chinese. But I not use to it la. Chinese words went into my head, process-->translate to english, finally understood wat he toking. Our topic of the day was World Cup. Haha..Well, he asked me whether I watched and since I did watch a few, so chat abt that lor. And he started to tell me which country is good, who will win, etc...2nd instructor was a malay. Sianz..He was few mins late for lesson. The way he teach is as though he talking to himself. So soft, mumbling..Argh..I have to double check with him everytime of what he wan me to do. I even caught him closing his eyes while I was driving on the road. INSTRUCTOR SLEEP LEH!!!!!!!! My goodness. Another thing...dunno wat's wrong wif him but he kept laughing. Abit of thing he also can laugh. And his laughter..kao eh...Wanna sai him sia...Keep laughing & how am i suppose to react? Laugh? Well, I juz did alittle to entertain him. But I was like smiling for one sec, the next sec, u see mi black face liao. But this malay instructor told me something, "I'm not going to help u brake like other instructors. Even if u pass e target line, i also wun help u stop. U in e middle of e road lor"
Anyway, I added slideshow of pictures in my blog under "ME"... Is same as frenster though..
Anyway, I added slideshow of pictures in my blog under "ME"... Is same as frenster though..
Saturday, June 10, 2006
Juz had our 1st Poly 50 training today at SP Track from 9am to 12pm. Ran 3 times round the track & did some short distance sprinting. Wah..The sprinting more jialat sia. But all of us persevere coz they cheered us on. Especially Zheng Long & Evangeline. Thanx ah..Ended our training at 11.30am and we started to set for our training dates. Well, it will be every saturday same time. Initially wanted to go for buffet lunch but not many of them are for the idea so went to one of our usual eating place (clementi).
This wk rather a fun week also la. Well, shld be becoz of the wednesday outing. Went to kbox wif sam & jy from 11am to 2pm. Since we were still kinda early in meeting qunjie & wenhao for cycling, we decided to go Parkway Parade & walked for awhile. Hehe..& we had our ice-cream. Woohoo! Yummy! Decided not to wait for the guys so we 3 gals juz proceed off to ECP. We cycled all the way to Tuas/Changi Jetty? Haha..nt sure also. But the place over there very nice. Chit chatted for awhile before moving off. Wanted to carry on to Changi Village but we running out of time so skipped the idea. Haiz..On our way back, saw qunjie & wenhao. Becoz of their distraction, sam & I almost collided. It seems that jy & the 2 guys didnt hear our screams. While the guys carried on with their cycling, we took a look at the different bbq pits & finally settled down at McDonalds for our dinner. Though our cycling grps are splitted into 2, i supposed we still had fun. But all the fun ended with muscleaches on my legs.
This wk rather a fun week also la. Well, shld be becoz of the wednesday outing. Went to kbox wif sam & jy from 11am to 2pm. Since we were still kinda early in meeting qunjie & wenhao for cycling, we decided to go Parkway Parade & walked for awhile. Hehe..& we had our ice-cream. Woohoo! Yummy! Decided not to wait for the guys so we 3 gals juz proceed off to ECP. We cycled all the way to Tuas/Changi Jetty? Haha..nt sure also. But the place over there very nice. Chit chatted for awhile before moving off. Wanted to carry on to Changi Village but we running out of time so skipped the idea. Haiz..On our way back, saw qunjie & wenhao. Becoz of their distraction, sam & I almost collided. It seems that jy & the 2 guys didnt hear our screams. While the guys carried on with their cycling, we took a look at the different bbq pits & finally settled down at McDonalds for our dinner. Though our cycling grps are splitted into 2, i supposed we still had fun. But all the fun ended with muscleaches on my legs.
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
twin towers? Cant rmb e name of e drink. Oreo Mocha ??? (btw, it doesnt taste good)
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see the cup? same hor? & my Oreo Cheesecake!
Rainy Day~
Had my driving lesson today & it was raining. 1st time drove in e rain. Now then I noe how scary it is to drive in the rain coz u could hardly see anything ahead of you except for the traffic lights. Saw Alvin & Irene after lesson. Alvin told me sth & I couldnt help but to laugh. He sae he saw me while driving le. Conversation with his instructor was as follow:
Alvin's instructor: Ask u drive, u see gers
Alvin: No! I saw my fren.
Alvin's instructor: Dun bluff...See gers sae see gers la.
Damn funnie lor. I kept laughing when he told me. But also, I found this conversation rather familiar. Immediately it struck me. Alex & Irene!!! Wahaha...
Chit chatted wif Irene on the way to Raffles Place & I found out that one of the DMC guy is one of her fren's "white horse" (bai ma wang zi). Whereever the guy go, her fren will follow. Diaoz...Ta you jiang da de mei li meh? I dun tink so lehz. Lolx..Anyway, met Jiayi at Raffles Place & decided to go to TCC for our project discussion. Guess it was quite an ulu place coz Kiat & Celine got lost! In the end, jy went out to find them. Haha..Tink next time we muz find a not so ulu place liao. lolx...Anyway, the cup that fills water at TCC looks the same as the one I used to made the candle wax for my frenz. But hey, if u guys tink I stole from TCC, no lor...haha..
Alvin's instructor: Ask u drive, u see gers
Alvin: No! I saw my fren.
Alvin's instructor: Dun bluff...See gers sae see gers la.
Damn funnie lor. I kept laughing when he told me. But also, I found this conversation rather familiar. Immediately it struck me. Alex & Irene!!! Wahaha...
Chit chatted wif Irene on the way to Raffles Place & I found out that one of the DMC guy is one of her fren's "white horse" (bai ma wang zi). Whereever the guy go, her fren will follow. Diaoz...Ta you jiang da de mei li meh? I dun tink so lehz. Lolx..Anyway, met Jiayi at Raffles Place & decided to go to TCC for our project discussion. Guess it was quite an ulu place coz Kiat & Celine got lost! In the end, jy went out to find them. Haha..Tink next time we muz find a not so ulu place liao. lolx...Anyway, the cup that fills water at TCC looks the same as the one I used to made the candle wax for my frenz. But hey, if u guys tink I stole from TCC, no lor...haha..
Saturday, June 03, 2006
Guess luck wasnt on our side after all coz we didnt win the 4D. Haiz...Suan le ba. Watched Over the Hedge with Jiayi, Fucai, Alex, Zheng Long, Frankie, Bernard & Leomund at Cathay. All Spac2go except for jy but den fc invited her along, plus she noe him & zl so it's ok la. It wasnt tat weird after all rite ger? Also, u muz be glad to join us at Cathay if not u would haf miss something or someone rite? Hahaha...Well, nth much for e nite la, juz dinner, movie & walked to Esplanade for a chat. While walking back home, I saw this grp of guy teenagers who were smoking at the bus stop. I had a feeling they were going to do sth. One of them approached me & asked me whether I have 2 50 cents coins. I juz replied, "sorry, dun haf" & walked off. Immediately I smsed Jiayi wat happened. Minute later, phone rang. It showed that it was jiayi's phone. I picked up & I went, "Hello?" But den, it wasnt jiayi's voice I heard, instead it was fucai's. I was shocked la. I was like, "why r u e one on the other line?" Started to ask whether I'm ok, bla bla bla...Ermz..I was indeed alrite la coz the guys didnt threaten me or anything. For a moment make me feel so bad...Coz I juz wanted to sms jy to let her noe wat happend. Didnt expect jy to show them the sms la. Pengz lor.. lolx...